Saturday, January 31, 2004
I was going to put 3 tags on the tagboard...But hmm.... guess it'd be a smarter idea to write an entry.
Mandy, what surprise?
What what I don't get it.
PZ what do you have to do with it?
Did ya plan Mandy a surprise?
What what??
:D
Tell me tell me I'm dying of boredom.
My short hair?
Yeah right my short hair.
Getting damn pissed off my hair is growing crazily fast....
It's up to my shoulders already (a month ago it was still above my chin)
Think I've been eating too much dead proteins or my body's killing my proteins too fast so my hair is growing like uncontrollably...
Okok I shall stop cursing my hair.
Shuxian, I read bout your entry about meeting Yvonne.
Don't worry about our friendship.
Let's just all be here for each other whenever we need help.
And that includes her.
We might not see her but she's there for us if we ever need her, just like I'm here for all of you, or how I trust you're all here for me when I need help.
Think you get the point...
Mandy, Wahahhaaha you sure are really excited about going back to Sydney.
Good for you...
Guess wat CSI Miami is coming back on Channel 10 on 11th Feb.
You'll be able to catch it.
Friends is coming back too on Monday!
Me is so going to die exams coming and haven't study and I'm planning to watch so much TV already...
Ber, I see you're putting your knowledge of Macroeconomics to good use huh :D
Would be fun to see the connection between the news in the countries and the effect it has on the currency.
Really.
Me's been looking at stocks and currency once in a while too.
It's way cool.
PZ...
Can't help but grin and shake my head when I think of you.
Hope your funny knee position is holding out.
I wanna see it when I get back :P
And really, what's that surprise and Mandy thing all about??
PJ, are you even reading this?
Love ya all.
Flisha @ 5:15 pm
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-no title- hmmm...mandy, it might be a miracle if i can wake up early tmr... i'll try but i cant really promise i can be there for sure...
so sorry...
and with deep regrets you werent able to join us yesterday... i hope you are feeling much better now...
i love you.
to everyone who turn up there...
zhi, hearing how you fell, reminded me of my fall in upper pierce...
damn scary... i hope the wound will heal and get well soon. have fun in the beach today. the sun is great!
bern, your hair style rocks!
it suits you perfectly... it is like a dream come true to see you in short hair. what dream you may ask, i also dont know but somehow, i always want to see you in short hair ( just like fel too... ) and so...
but you look awesome in it. stay this way dear!
jun, a.... actually, your top is a bit distracting... was wondering the whole time whether it will slip anot but darent voice it out in case you accuse me of being perverted again. have fun working, if i cant find a job after i quit, mind if i join you there?
and then, now i got a fabulous idea. lets decide on a day in a week and meet up then. be it movie or dinner or majong or whatever... just hang out! k?
mandy, take care dear... will miss you so much... thanx for all the time we spend together... i hope i have made your stay memorable... see you in sydney. in abt three months time... you better made my money worth by being a good host. -grinz- i love you.
xian @ 3:21 pm
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explanation timeFriday, January 30, 2004
Thanks babe for the surprise.It's a pity cuz we just missed each other by say a couple of mins.
I was really pissed off with wz, cuz he went to the prata house first while i was still waiting for him at J8. Had to take the bus there by myself and I thought i was on the wrong bus. So i told him that if i'm lost i'll go home. Then miraculously i found my way there. Dinner was very spoilt, we didnt talk at all, ate up and then I told him to pay up and leave. yep.
Was near home when ping called. That was a surprise sms. Hehe, her sms was so cute.
Went sth like,
We wanted to give u a surprise but you surprised us instead.
I was like, huh? ok.. Oops. (O.O)
Thanks babes,
and bern! try to come k, i want to see ur new hair..
Oh yah, and I've went for a haircut. Pretty happy with it.
Fel, do u reckon i bring some of my soft toys over? cuz i was thinking that if i bring them there, i have to bring them back. see first.
will pack later.. cya on sunday (if u can wake up)
Mad M'matician @ 9:28 pm
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i'm hereThursday, January 29, 2004
hi people,sorry i havent blog for such a long time...
actually i have been reading the blogs but i just didnt have the mood to blog...
well,
i miss all of you...
i cant meet you all if you are gathering at three... cos, i end work at 230pm. and by the time i took a refreshing shower and reach whereever i need to go... i'll probably be super super super late... abt 1 to 2 hours...
anyway, i'll join you all there... msg me...
oh, and to fel,
so sorry... ntuc locker has no hp reception... so i cant receive anything... msg me and i'll call you back!!!
take care people... till we meet!
p/s: i am super broke... only have 2.50 with me... so yar... sorry if i am refraining myself from food... -grinz-
waiting for ben to bk out on sat.
xian @ 11:40 pm
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the reappearing act SORRY i haven't been able to blog these few days..was spending as much time with li as possible before he went in..
mandy, he went in on the night of the 27th.. not much diff.. but same batch as lionel yeo and all.
it's just that he was there earlier (though only for abt 2 wks) so methinks the army wants him to help out a little before the really-dunno-whats-happening-whats-thia?-whats-that?-newbies come in camp..
methinks they are supposed to be like guides or smthg..
i dunno.
I've got a job at "RAFFLES MONEY CHANGE"..
it's at clifford centre..
It's quite cool..
started yesterday..
been tiring though cause i've gotta wake at 7am to get to work on time and i sleep at like.. 2am or if lucky 1am..
*YAWN*
keep nodding off to sleep on the bus ride home today.
my duties vary though..
but lucky for me i've been posted to "counter" today and yesterday..
xiu did "counter" with me yesterday but today she got "desk"..
"desk" is real boring.. u do all the shit paperwork they give you..
"counter" has proven to be quite interesting and fun..
basically..
when a customer comes, i'm like a money changer..
(but a high class one given the stature of the company)..
when there are no customers i answer calls..
or if there's really nothing to do..
they'll just throw me work..
Like today, i didn't have much to do aside from answering the phone..
so i spent the day using correction tape to blanko out a line from each data entry printed out..
just to give you guys an idea..
i page has 5 entries..
and i did stacks and stacks..
could possibly reach the top of my table from the floor if they were all stacked up..
i'm not exaggerating..
trust me..
yesterday was more interesting though..
more customers..
it was the first time i had held a bundles of $50, $100, and the rare $1000 notes in my hand..
for a moment.. you feel real rich..
then real poor the next..
sheesh..
for u guys studynig in australia..
the sing dollar has indeed depreciated lots but it's slowly appreciating so your studying fees may be less affected as time passes..
i actually monitor exchange rates and do the calculations.
and i know the short form for loads of different currencies..
weird thing to tell u guys but.. it's true.
but dun think i'm being paid lots..
i'm not..
standard pay..
5 measly bucks an hr..
Oh.. sure... 800 bucks a month is ok..
BUT.. there's smthg i haven't told u guys yet..
I LOST MY HP AGAIN!!
so pls kindly sms me all your numbers..
with your name attached of course..
some stupid cab drove off with it..
the next passenger took it..
i'm sure it wasn't the stupid blur taxi driver..
i didn't tell my parents..
so i replaced it myself..
exact same model..
same colour..
etc..
and it set me back abt 400 bucks..
OUCH.
i'm thinking of permenantly scotch-taping it to myself..
i dun have that much money to spare ya know..
lucky my ang bao money covered abt half of it..
I'M GAME for meeting up tmrw..
u guys arrange and sms me ok?
i get off work at abt 6pm though..
to all my babes out there..
love ya all..
miss ya all..
take care.
let's meet up soon k?
brianna @ 8:26 pm
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can we meet tmr!! its the only day left aniwae..!!!i'm free the entire dae...
i'm kinda stuck at home..
..
erm.. n can we have it somewhere nearer my place..
the furthest... thomson plaza..
cos my mother doesnt want me going too far..
with the injury and all..
sorry if i'm such a bother..
but please can we all meet...
pingzhi @ 2:55 pm
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004
I was going to write :DMandy, school has been good friends are fantastic hahahaa.
We sing Greenseas flavoured tuna stay 98% fat free by running from sharks during tutorials.
Go watch tv when you get back to Sydney you'll start too.
I think it's channel 9.
There are parts of home I miss.
Recently discovered a difference between longing/yearning and missing.
Yup.
So I miss parts of home... but I'm really happy here.
So Mandy are you mentally prepared to go back to Sydney?
I'm really glad you seem to be so excited about it.
And that you're making it home by bringing your bolster!
Smart idea.
Don't forget to bring bolster cases that match the rest of the manchester yeah.
Remember if they don't sell bolsters they don't sell the cases either...
(I couldn't sleep when I first got here cos I didn't have a bolster... and since then I have never been bothered to pack anything bulky)
As in you realized Jason was a prefect?
Yeah he was an exco member...
SX, how've you been?
I've been trying to get you but I think I'm just jinxed everytime I dail you mobile number it's switched off.
You've got a pretty disturbing blog entry...
To the rest of you -
SX, PJ, Bern, PZ, Chang...
I don't have much to say these days.
But me's been reading the blogs I can get my hands on pretty regularly...
Okay lah.
Catch ya'll soon.
Love you lots!
Flisha @ 9:34 pm
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hahaha been packinggonna be bringing back a lot of gummy sweets
when do u wanna meet?
fyi, my flight's on a sunday morning.
haha, dunno if u guys can wake up.
oh well.
when do u want to meet?
sat's out cuz we need to pack.
other than that, the rest of the days are free.
not that there's many left.
zhi, ur leg's feeling better?
how long does ur mc leave last?
jun, how ur work environment?
heard from SX tt the boys have been disturbing u at ac barker.
yvonne and rosemarie...
where are you??
bern, how's lionel?
when will he be entering commando?
izzit today? cuz i know that Lionel yeo and 2 church frenz are
entering today.
sx, better start knitting soon.
i bet u ur needles and yarn are collecting dust.
chang, thx 4 the company last week.
when r u starting driving lessons?
wish ya Good Luck!
fel(!)
how's sch? missing home?
want to wish u all the best for the upcoming term.
and i realise that Jason's keith's fren, who was WZ's senior
in SJI prefects. yep.
alrighty, better be packing (again)
i'm like bringing the entire house there.
(bolster, pillows, stuff toys, blankets, etc)
hehe
Mad M'matician @ 12:54 pm
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why dun you all write something.. can we all meet before mandy flies off...??pleaase..
about me!!
my stitches are out...
i'm starting to walk alright..
n i can't wait to get out of the house..
which according to my mother is just in time only for work...
which is real crap..
she has never has such a grip on my life.. expect now
and its driving me burzerk..!!! argh!!!
hate this hate this hate this..
some one help!!!
pingzhi @ 12:28 pm
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hello..!!!!Friday, January 23, 2004
i wanna take the stupid stitches off!!!but the clinic is closed..!!!
public holiday..!!!
one more day!!!
ARGH!!!
CRAP!!!
the chinese new year hasnt been too good..
walking is such a chore...
n cos i'm stuck at home..
i kinda screwed up my sleeping times..
so i'm like sleepin during the dae..
n at night cant get to sleep...
plus plus plus..
i wanna go clubbing..
there is a party tmr..
hong jie's n tun's..
i wanna go!!!
poo..!!!
even my fairy god mother wont be able to get me out of this one..!!!
pingzhi @ 1:31 pm
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roflThursday, January 22, 2004
roxor bern, gosh, and i thot it was onli short. LOL i can't wait to see it, meet up soon leh, sorry i missed mass, am still sleep deprived despite all the sleep i got. Haha I think ur dad's reaction was cute, haha, relax lionel won't hafta see it for long, and yes.. hair can and WILL grow. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARjun @ 4:38 pm
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my trip down the road of adventureTuesday, January 20, 2004
i tried to be adventurous today..went to cut my hair..
since tmrw is like CNY's eve and all..
well..
u know how i always go "anything anything"?
well.. now i have a haricut with red streaks..
not so bad right?
only it's the length of ping zhi's last disaster shorter-than-guys haricut..
it's true..
i can't decide if i look like a real ugly cynthia koh..
or just a tree with a huge puffy bird nest atop of it..
or a butch..
good thing is..
hair can grow..
good thing too..
coz lionel hates it..
i'm still in shock so i guess i'm not used to it right now..
but i guess it'll be alright once i get used to it..
new start for a new CNY..
i found my dad's reaction to my hair particularly interesting..
ME : Heya dad! check out my new hairdo!
DAD : OH MY GOODNESS!!............. u look nice! Geez, you shld have dyed it bright yellow instead of red.. even brownish streaks would have been nice..
ME : huh?!?
i know i know.. what a turn of expectations..
lionel's reaction was expected..
ME : hey-
LIONEL : Oh my... u don't look ugly or good ya know..it's AWFUL!
i know i know.. SO comforting and such NICE words to hear..
i mean.. even if i looked like medusa u think your guy would have smthg not so bad to say right?
nope.
not lionel.
he believes in honesty..
too honest sometimes i think..
my auntie (divina.. you know my auntie-maid..) kinda likes it..
and my mum thinks i look gd in short hair..
she thinks my hair is SUPER funky..
in a way.. that's kinda true with the streaks and all..
my younger sister doesn't really like it..
she prefers me in long hair..
but at least she didn't say it was not bad but AWFUL..
sheesh.. talk abt NO EQ..
well..
that's my boyfriend for you..
brianna @ 7:53 pm
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my darlings.. thanks for everything..!!!Monday, January 19, 2004
hey.. i managed to sneak upstairs.. my parents are so sirprised that i made it..!!!well.. i'm feeling aa bit "off" bit dizzy from the pain killers...
but i'm not going to take another one unless its totally ness..
i need to go soon.. my mom wants to help me wash my haair..
bleah.. i cant bathe through CNY... how sucky is that...
thanks for coming to visit..
ber.. thanks for the jelly..
jun.. thanks for the strwberries..
chang..thanks for the lovely company..
i think the most sane out of all of us...
hahha..
they noe what happened to me..
but i shall repeat my self for all ur benefit..
went cycling with my father, bro, uncle, n his friends..
first time ever going mountain biking (at mandai)
my very first major down hill.. was looking forward to it..
but i maade a lethal mistaake by not pressing the brakes early..
so my the tuime i was half way down the hill..
i was going to fast...
i decided not the try the brakes... i'll fly off..
so just HANG ON!!
but i was lmost at the bottom.. swerved top the eft..
n got flung off..
i got up.. but my groin hurt.. so i held it..
i looked aropund onmly graazes... no biggy.. so i stood up straight..
the moment i did that..
blood just started flowing down my right leg..
profusely..
never quite seen blood flow like thaat...
i froze..
my uncle n dad.. tried to carry to the main road.. but everyone was exhusted..
so we waited for the ambulance...
i shall stop here... i need to go.. need to bathe.. sponge bath...
pingzhi @ 7:52 pm
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let's visit zhi tmr, either in the hospital or at her house.Saturday, January 17, 2004
i dont know but this all sounded so unreal...was about to get up for my morning jog today... but dont why, whatever the hell is going on, i didnt feel like jogging... so, i stayed in bed and daydreamt... then, hah! Fel called. and then, the next thing i knew was zhi is in hospital! huh?! ( had i force myself to jog i would've probably missed fel's call and would not have know about it. )
but, i am still shocked... how could this be? how could it happened? anybody has any idea...
the thing is that i cant visit her today, cos ( my fault ) i lied to my kor that i have collected his photos yesterday... and then realised that he is coming back this evening so i got to get it for him by today... if i dont he will probably never trust me again... so i have to make a trip down to raffles place...
and then, tonight, i am working from 6 to 12am... ( yes, i know, very late... ntuc try to be smart and open until midnight, two nights before new year eve, until 2am... idiotic right? as if anyone will shop at this insane hour?! ) and so is tmr night...
so i think if she is still in hospital tmr, i will be going down at around 3pm... if not, i will probably go to her house... anybody wish to join me? i dont wish to go alone...
to everyone else... please take care.
xian @ 4:39 pm
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almost forgot while kor's in the shower, i shall quickly say wat i can, chinese new year thing.. me fine with anything.. met chang yesterday before training, am dreadfully sick now, busy with work at acs. I guess tts abt it. Oh ya mi will wear pinafore if any of u lend me belt, mine missing opps, civi is fine as well,me no work on eve. and cny is on thurs my dear felz.. i'm replying and posting then read then reply then post.. darn i suck, and ya zhi me no pay yet as well.. am very broke.. sighjun @ 3:24 pm
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updates i'm back for a lil while and its becos zhi is down. jus got off the phone with her.. she sounds... ok i guess but i'm still worried sick. She's in room 433, goin to visit her tml if she's not discharged, she needs rest, dad said she's rather weak so shall not go bother her as of yet. Last heard she suffered quite a number of cuts and had to have them stiched up. Hafta go now.. will read everything u pple posted when i get my comp.. kor's throwing a tantrum.jun @ 3:21 pm
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PZ's not completely well. I think you all already know - Ping Zhi's in hospital.NUH.
That's all I know.
Counting on you all to update me.
Let the exhibition of extensive love. care, support and friendship begin!
*hugz*
Cheers babes.
Flisha @ 12:04 pm
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i'm sorry..Friday, January 16, 2004
i really dun wanna be a party pooper.. but i'm going to feel really awkard there...its not like i dun miss the uniform or anything..
i really miss it!! argh!!
but u noe.. i havent really visited the new sch much..
n i dun really feel much for the new sch..
i'm jus worried that i'll feel so out of place..
n u guys.. dun be sore about the money u earned n spent.
i havent even got any pay..
n i'm sad cos i would have no money to spend.. which is pathetic..
i'll show you th break down..but yea... its real crummy..
dun wanna work..
even though its fun..
its like.. today.. at 4.30..
i was bored out of my wits.. cos cindy(the lady in charge of me)
took the afternoon off...
i was thinking.. 2 hours.. i earn $9
thats crap..
i rather give you the freaking $9
n go home to sleep...
pingzhi @ 9:50 pm
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my lionel.. out? erm..well sx..
lionel went in early on the 10th dec but passed his ippt test on the 3rd of jan..
that's when the first attempt was..
he's been out ever since..
he's gotta go back after chinese new year though..
on the night of the 27th Jan..
poor ben..
is he in already?
brianna @ 3:46 pm
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(dont know what to name my post...) i wonder how bern's lionel can come out on thursday...hmm...
anyway, i think i am really broke too... my last month pay is used up long time ago...
very bad huh, and currently living of my mum now...
bad bad...
( i realised something... i am always using the word 'bad')
anyway, i felt like wearing the pinafore... it's been such a long time... ( plus if i can find one... )
hee... i dont know...
okay, scooting off to ben's house now... going to be so lonely from now onwards...
wahhh....
xian @ 12:19 pm
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not so rich anymoreThursday, January 15, 2004
treated lionel to lunch today..down by 16 bucks just like that..
abt 1/3 salary gone..
plus, methinks i gotta top up y farecard soon..
oops.. there goes 20 bucks..
abt 10 bucks left..
for me to spend when i go out tmrw..
how sweet..
brianna @ 6:57 pm
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My Very First PaycheckWednesday, January 14, 2004
heya pple..just got my very own paycheck..
for my first official cash paying job.. (well, cheque to be more accurate)
I worked only yesterday and today (the job only requires 2 days of work)..
5 hrs yesterday from 9 to 2pm..
4 hrs today from 2 to 6 pm..
got paid 5 bucks on hr so got 45 bucks!!
YIPPEE!!
(yup, that's how broke i am)
I'M RICH!!
well.. not till i cash in my cheque..
the best part abt my completely slack job is that yesterday i only got less than 10 calls..
that's like $3 bucks per call!
today..(coz i was bored almost to my death) i literally had to beg to do smthg..
(they got me to stick stickers on envelopes bearing the company's name, add and contacts)
if not.. well.. i only got 5 calls today..
or smthg like that..
it was very little..
Well, fact is..
i'm $45 richer.
HA!
and by the way, mighty proud abt it..
brianna @ 8:37 pm
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I wanna go too... That's a fantastic idea.Darn I won't be going...
Oh well...
I know this sounds terrible - when exactly is CNY?
I know it's next week but dunno when...
Oh you know what, I've got assignments due every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.
Might start having another one due on Wednesday.
So dead huh.
AAAARRGH....
Anyway...
Love ya!
Fel
Flisha @ 8:28 pm
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IJ.. i dun mind..only one prob..
dunno where my pinafore is..
dunno if its still in my closet or my sister is using it..
if its in my closet (which i can't be bothered to check out)
well..
it will be in its translucent state..
hmmm..
brianna @ 8:15 pm
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LET'S ALL GO BACK TO IJ!!! hmmm. i have this very very crazy idea... and pls pls... support me...let's all go back to ij on chinese new year's eve!!!
in our pinaform and stuff!!!
okay????
but i am leaving at 11am cos i am working from 12pm onwards...
so pls...
it gonna be fun!!!
xian @ 12:46 am
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sneaking offTuesday, January 13, 2004
heya guys..guess where i am right now?
WORK!
well.. sorta..
its a part time temp job for two days only..
2 days..
today and tomorrow..
not even full day somemore..
9-1 today. well.. 2 since i'm covering for my "friend" whos taking over after me..
i don't know her personally..
introduced just yesterday..
she's my friend's friend..
and she's REAL PRETTY..
big eyes..
great atitude..
eurasian..
nuff said..
and i get paid $5 an hr..
not bad for a perfectly slack job..
been idling for a while now..
receptionist type job thingy..
oh well..
looks like it's hard to meet up with sx being occupied with ben..
mandy being grounded..
pz searching for a boyfriend (haha)..
felz overseas..
pj with whatever she's up to (always busy)
changyi, yves completely missing..
and rosemarie uncontactable for the last yr..
anywyays, miss u guys..
we still going to melbourne in march or smthg like that?
brianna @ 12:56 pm
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haiz...Monday, January 12, 2004
u noe wat guy...i'm getting tired of this..
but thats ok..
i think i should get a guy..
so that i dun feel left out..
you all seem like you have so much to do.. bleah...
unlike me...
no need to answer to anyone
wait for anyone
spend time with anyone..
this jus sucks..
haha.. funny i should say this.. but yea...
pingzhi @ 9:02 pm
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I don't wanna give any more excuses Let's be frank:I'm grounded.
Why am I grounded?
Cuz I didn't put down a f***king fax no when I was applying for my course.
How does that lead to me being grounded?
Cuz I am waiting for the uni to snail mail my offer letter. So I can't go out should the letter arrive, then I have to go down to the office here to accept, and do all the normal stuff.
But that shouldn't be a problem rite?
It is a problem cuz it takes 2 days for the Confirmation of Enrolment letter to arrive. And another 1-2 days to clear my medical checkup and finally 2 weeks for my visa.
Then what happens?
I dunno. At this rate, I don't think I can fly over to Aus on the 1st thanks to the visa, and if that's the case I won't be able to commence my course this March cuz all the flights are fully booked for the month of Feb.
So how are things now?
Bad.
My mum's not talking to me after she found out I didn't put a fax no down. And I don't want to point fingers else where so I'm taking the entire blame.
Fel:
Just curious, how long did u have to wait for ur visa last year?
PJ:
It's ok. Take ur time.. The health and welfare of ur laptop comes first.
Oh well folks, It's really my fault this time.
Mad M'matician @ 7:15 pm
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oh no.Sunday, January 11, 2004
hmmm...this is really bad... i suggested for a gathering and yet i realised i cant go...
please please please please understand that ben is leaving on friday... and i have to work on every single day before that... and our thirteen is on tuesday... so if there is any gathering please excuse me...
this is bad and i am really sorry...
was too busy sharing all the time i could squeeze for ben.
i am really really sorry...
xian @ 11:44 pm
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sad eh please dun kill me, u noe wat, our layout have to be pushed back indefinitely cos i screwed up my lappy, sigh everything is in bad shape, i'm a bad owner =(jun @ 11:41 pm
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YesyesyesyesyesSaturday, January 10, 2004
I don't want to ask my mum for more money.More than half the money goes on transport..
Anyway.
I watched Blue's Clues for 3 days!
"When you play Blue's Clues,
you gotta find a...... PAWPRINT!
Yes! A pawprint!
And that's our first... CLUE!
A clue?? A CLUE!!
You put it in a notebook cuz it's
Blue's clues.. Blue's clues.
You gotta find the next pawprint,
That's our 2nd clue.
You put it in a notebook cuz it's
Who's clue? Blue's clue..
You gotta find the next pawprint,
That's our 3rd clue.
You put it in a notebook cuz it's
Blue's clue? Blue's clue..
Then you sit down in a THinking chair
and think, Think, THINK...
It's when you use your mind
Take a step at the time,
we can do anything that we wanna do!"
Yeah, Had to record it for Manzel.
Mad M'matician @ 10:25 am
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meeting upFriday, January 09, 2004
haha..me wanna meet up too..
but can we do smthg low budget?
i have absolutely no more cash right now..
completely borke..
actualy i'm in negative mode..
keep drawing from my savings but recently..
well.
let's just say i can't draw from my savings anymore even if i wanted to..
coz there's none left!!
*SOBS*
brianna @ 5:11 pm
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colour scheme for moi? heya junz..whats this abt a clolour for moi?
text font?
methinks.. YELLOW!!
or if that's taken..
well, i dunno..
u see whats nice lor..
brianna @ 5:09 pm
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hmmm. hmmm...i got nothing much to say here...
just want to say that fel's new blog skin nearly became mine yesterday...
was considering whether to change to a new layout... deciding between that greenish layout and another plum colour... in the end, i left the current one alone cos i still like the bear... hmmm... had i change, fel's and mine would be identical...
anyway, anybody wants to meet up again?
xian @ 11:23 am
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No Cute Guy...Thursday, January 08, 2004
Hey folksHaha Melb Uni is damn sad
No more cute guys I have chances of meeting in Lectures
The only other one who was a candidate for a cute guy is *bleah*
He's cute alright... but....
Argh....
Wahahaha!
Just had to whine.
Life's still close to perfect anyhow.
Cheers!
Flisha @ 9:13 pm
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start: blog *dot* end oooh our blog is finally showing itself, yes yes new layout up soon.. onli need bern to choose a color.. quik.. change.. haiz i choose for her la she so busi.. anyway jus to say i love ya. Mwaks.jun @ 7:38 pm
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to that last point madeWednesday, January 07, 2004
*grinz*=)
brianna @ 7:12 pm
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The Last PointTuesday, January 06, 2004
Yeah you're right, nobody want's to blog here.We're all just as frustrated as you are.
Please don't look down on yourself.
You ARE a great person and you have to believe it.
Thank you, for breaking the ice.
It still is hard to blog there though.
To pretend nothing has happened.
We all HAVE to move on and change.
Do we really drop anything just to be together?
If we really do do that, then congratulations to us I guess - for making the effort.
My being a wet blanket comes with a point -
Dear Bernice, Chang Yi, Mandy, Pei Jun, Ping Zhi, Shu Xian,
Lets just take things as they come.
I agree with ShuXian - it is our right to change. Let us never drop our other commitments just to be together. We're not charity of each others' time.
I agree with Bernice - this has to stop. It's going to be hard to 'pretend' that nothing's happen, but we'll stop it anyway.
Maybe it calls for a change of layout and what nots...
I agree with all of you to a certain extent.
I'm not sorry for being a wet blanket after Ber's beautiful message.
Once again,
- take things as they come
- WITHOUT HAVING TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE CHARITY.
Flisha @ 9:51 pm
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a final note my dear friends whom i have gone through thick and thin with..we shld stop this verbal debate and diarrhea (or however you spell it)..
The pple closest to me in my life (besides u guys) have all expressed the same frustration..
that i'm always ready to drop whatever i have (if possible and not that damaging) to be with u guys.
Even lionel recognises it and has come to accept it. (well, he doesn't really have much of a choice right?)
so let's stop this nonsense and just go on as great friends do..
love u all.
brianna @ 3:36 pm
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Pissed off on giving up on each other? Fel don't give up????Saturday, January 03, 2004
I really don't want to be the bloody spoilt bitch.But you try trying what I've tried for two years and you tell me if you feel like giving up.
And if you think that I'm wrong to give up, you've forgotten to remember that I did promise that I'll always be here.
Know like right here waiting?
And ready when you are?
I'm here when you are.
And this pushing blame business will get nowhere so I suggest we blame ourselves.
I should start with what's wrong with me shouldn't I?
Flisha @ 4:42 pm
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frm the bottom of my heart. hmmm...i didnt get to send fel off today... this sucks... not going to see her for many months...
anyway, our postings have been very depressing nowadays...
i guess everyone is very upset about the distances we felt between one another... i do too, sometimes well, most of the sometimes.
however, being so busy alone, thinking and reflecting about everything while cashering brought me to this. everyone is unique and everyone changes, it is their right to change. and being friends, we must acknowledge this change... ultimately this is what friends are for right? take me and ben for instance, he changed A LOT. and i couldnt accept it. we quarrel and fought. too hard to live by. suddenly, one day, i stopped fighting, stopped quarreling, and kept quiet. i began to see the new person and i realised that it is no use to use physical means to resist the change. it will only hurt more. anyway, i try to give him support whenever he needs, he doesnt need much of my opinions as he is 19 now. what he wants to be is really his problem.
same as us, by acknowledging our changes, we are giving one another space and respect which is very vital in any relationship. no point to go on like this. sometimes, look at it this way, a little bit of distances might do us good... whatever it is, i just want to say something which mandy had told me during sec 4, which has always motivated me along, which is also the light of all my darkness, whatever it is, it is always a God's blessing in disguise.
to fel, refering to your previous blog, dont just give up yet. there shouldnt be anything you are giving up. what's that anyway?
to the rest, aye, God bless us all. we will make it somehow, dont fret.
i love you all.
p/s: my heartfelt thoughts... seriously, i feel like crying now...
xian @ 12:27 am
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what i thinkFriday, January 02, 2004
Is it jus me or tt most of us seem to have our thots on how different we have all become? I dun mean anything negative, there's nothing wrong with thinking abt it but somehow, i find it disheartening, sometimes when we get together, i may be a lil lost with all the names of the new pple in ur life and what not. But at the end of the day i'm jus thankful for the time i get to spend with u gals, cos no matter how we change, to me the time spent together is magical, seriously i have the most fun with u gals, my other frens dun even come to being as close as u gals. I really wish we have more time together but I guess things will be harder as we age, becos of different commitments. I jus hope wat we have now will last many lifetimes and I will always find solace in u, cos the bond we share means the world to me. Doubt is a contagious disease, so i choose to believe and hopejun @ 11:03 pm
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oh.. since were on the topic of reflection.. i am not quite sure there are peoople who want to hear wat i wan to sae.. a large portion of it is on the entry which i deleted... i dun noe if you have read it.. but thats ok...i am trying to see your point of view.. but i think i'm having a really tough time...
i believe that our friendship is stronger than we have ever realised.. our clique is beyond all the superficial things that other girls our age pride themselves in.. and i really admire us as a group for that.. i thank the lord for such wonderful friends.. i jus want to remind everyone... not to take...each other.. our friendship.. us... for granted because.. i feel.. even romance doesnt last... true friends do..
there are times that i fear that we have grown distance... too far apart... our different paths.. have made us forget the memories we've shared.. but everytime we gather.. all my fear disparate..
as for yvonne... i dun blame her.. honestly she was never that close to our clique.. she only joined us much later... the rest of us have been friends since the first day of sec 3. .. my... how time flies..
hehe.. as for my priorities... you guys are first... my other friends know that i'll drop everything to be with you guys.. in a blink of an eye.. even my mother has come to accept this...
no matter what happens in life.. even if you were to forget me.. i'll love you all the same... jus because you are a special friend...
pingzhi @ 9:59 pm
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job for ping.. heya ping.. didn't know u had a job?what is it?
does that mean u won't be able to go out much..
like sx?
brianna @ 6:08 pm
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frustrations abt us i just wanna express certain piss offs that i've had in the yr..i'm pissed off that pple keep giving up on each other.. i mean.. whats that all abt?
is our frindship meaningless that we can't even call or meet one another..
that we can't sms each other now and then..
that we can't even take 5 mins off our hectic or not day to blog?
to let the pple we care abt.. and hopefully care abt us.. know what we're up to?
to share our feelings and thoughts for the day?
to yves..
where the heck are u?
everyone else managed to make it for the gathering at ping's..
were u not in singapore?
even then.. where are u?
u don't seem be ard anymore nor give a shit abt us..
even chang yi makes time..
and she's HELL busy..
I've seen u less than the number of all fingers i have i believe..
in the past yr..
honestly..
i'm going from "where's yvonne?"
to "dun bother.. not like she'll bother anyway"
sorry to start off so bitchy..
but i really need to know..
do we count for anything anymore?
to junz..
having this blog was the best thing that kept u in contact with us other than u're own blog.
this at least is somewhat interactive..
i've too seen u less than the number of fingers i've had..
in a whole yr!
wish i could see u more..
i've nothing much to say abt sx and pz..
i've met them more often than anyone else..
felz and mandy..
overseas..
but yet i still get to see them..
rosemarie?
gone from this planet.
I dunnno..
somehow i have mixed feelings..
sometimes i have this illusion that we're all the same and as close as ever..
sometimes i think we're losing contact..
and that saddens and scares me..
to think that some of u are slowly becoming from great pals to sheer shadows..
i know i'm being quite hypocritical by posting this..
after all..
how many times have you guys seen me?
how many outings have i missed...
the lunch at seoul garden..
the dinner at borwn box on x-mas eve's eve..
(i can't remember any farther than that due to my rusty memory)..
sigh..
have we really degenerated from great galpals to shadowless creatures?
brianna @ 5:29 pm
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broken is it just me or do i have this sense that we aren't trying to even stay together?like fel for instance..
plus..there have been murmurs of "we aren't the same" so long and so forth..
but worse.. in the negative sense?
brianna @ 5:14 pm
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'Right here waiting' is sappy. I know we're ALL putting in an effort to make what we had work.RIGHT?
My answer - wrong.
I've given up.
I also know that however OPTIMISTIC we are keeping in mind the point of view we're coming from.
RIGHT?
My answer - CORRECT.
We see things from our OWN points of view.
And I, like all of you, have been taught to see the bigger picture.
RIGHT?
My answer - CORRECT.
It's just that we haven't learnt.
I don't think I'm wrong and I sincerely apologize for sounding high and mighty.
I implore thee think about it.
And while doing so always remember that I'm here for the sake of the magic we shared.
Flisha @ 1:34 pm
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i am really really sorry to pz, fel, mandy and pjThursday, January 01, 2004
my deepest apology to all.i am so sorry for not turning up this afternoon... was supposed to message one of you but then i forgot...
went to work today... and when i came home... my kor was so sick that he threw up twice and hardly had any energy to walk...
so yar, went to tan tock seng a&e with him... only left the place at six.
i am really sorry guys... i really really forgot about it... now, i feel so ashamed of myself that i couldnt bring myself to message you all... so sorry...
hmmm... fel, have a nice flight k? sorry i couldnt meet you before you leave... really sorry...
pei jun, sorry i missed your call...
ping zhi, sorry for not letting you know... i forgot... really really didnt mean it...
in short, i am really sorry.
xian @ 10:54 pm
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in short just what i'm really trying to say is..i really value our friendship and am really thankful to have every single one of u guys in my life.
Thanks lots for being my friends.
U guys are really the best.
brianna @ 8:50 pm
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a word of regret.. I'm really sorry babes to start the new year not showing up for our supposed plans today.esp with fel flying off soon..
on the revelations..
fel, i think it's a great idea to reflect and share..
i would love to read the thoughts that go through the brains of my coolest friends..
BUT to read mine..
well..
happy waiting..
dunno where to start and dunno when..
haha..
BUT i'll try and get it done asap..
since the blog site is not the best way to share our blogs..
right now the only way i can thin of is mass e-mail..
either that or mass mail..
i think the latter is more fun of course..
*grinz*
i realise that mandy and fel and sx have recognised something in common..
apparently there is this gap between us all..
i don't quite share the same feeling with u guys..
though sometimes i feel we are further apart than before.
It's a joy to meet u guys adn just hang out..
though i hardly see u guys (esp those studying overseas) and hardly call to talk to u guys..
i find myself wanting to hang out with u guys the most..
u guys are really the coolest bunch of friends i've met. There are no squabbles between us nor grudges over past deeds (sorry again ping if u still remember that i shouted at you in camp once.. really felt bad about it.. and still do). There are hardly any disparities between us. We do not judge each other but accept each other for whom we truly are. Personally i have had most of the most fun i've ever had with u guys.. And i love u all. Truly i think having u guys in my life is a blessing. To me, we aren't really apart or drifting. We are actually still very much in sinc (that's not the way u spell it i think.. definitely wrong) with each other. I can't imagine not having met u guys or being in the clique. Sometimse i just sit back and think what others are missing by not being here with us.. by not joining us in our activities.. by not being part of our clique.. that has been bonded so strongly by the friendship we have with one another. Undeniably some of us.. or maybe even all of us.. feel closer to a particular someone than another from our clique. But . when we come together.. all i ever see is one happy family. And i really cherish that.
brianna @ 8:47 pm
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